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Tuesday, May 13, 2008
/ 5/13/2008 09:53:00 am PS: People, ignore this post if you don't want to see the emo+sad+!@#$% part of me. __________________________________________________________ To my dearest classmate, I'm feeling so insecure, seeing you adding girls in Friendster everyday. Yes i'm jealous, and I know I'm in no position to be jealous, I'm not even your girlfriend, and I don't know what I am to you, and sometimes I really feel like asking you that, but I just can't bring myself to it. I once told myself to not get emotionally attached to anyone, because I'm SO afraid of getting hurt. It was until you came into my life, I thought I've finally found the right one; someone who I can rely on, someone who will be there for me, someone I can be happy with, someone I can feel special to be with, someone who I can love. You used to be so nice to me, sms-ing me everyday, saying all the nice stuffs, make me stupidly fall for you and then you start to take me for granted, all the littlest things I do for you, you don't seem to appreciate them anymore. :( ..Everything is so wrong, I start to feel that I'm just another "normal" girl in your life, someone you can go out with/talk to when you're bored and someone who you use to just fill the emptiness in your heart. I hate this feeling, I hate to realise that I'm the only one taking this relationship(?) seriously. That's why I'm starting to stay a distance from you if you realise. I can't let myself get hurt anymore. I feel so confused/upset/I-don't-know-how-to-describe. All I need is your assurance, tell me where do I stand in your heart, tell me all the things I've said in this post are wrong. If not, just let me go. __________________________________________________________ Just typed this for fun, he won't get to see it anyway. |
