themomentiwakeupinthemorning

thefirstpersonthatcomestomymindisyou..


..andjustthethoughtofyoumakesmyheartacheslikehell. =/




Someone save me from all these, please. :'(

爱里行动不便
追不上你的美 脚步再快跟不上你的嘴
分开我骗了谁
想擦掉你的脸 擦不掉痛却更明显

你说你要的世界 在很远 我不了解
分手就分手 别把话说得太美

我像个残废 飞不出你的世界
借不到一点安慰 为什么你拼命后退
退到了边界 结果我没了知觉
就连痛都嫌浪费

在爱里残废 非弄得伤痕累累
累到我无力再追
最怕你突然要挽回
回到了原点 原点却又像终点
然后多痛一遍

我像个残废 在爱里残废

Sometimes I really wish that things could go back to what they used to be..

New term starts today, and I actually dread going to school later.
I'm asked to act like nothing happened, but I know things would be different,
no more casual chit-chats, no more doodling on notes, no more stealing glances at each other.
Everything will just be so
awkward.


If only Kaini and Nic are still around with me..................... :(





.. and I feel sad while typing these. :(
argh I hate all these stupid sad shit in my blog :(
I just wanna be happy again!~ =/

After emo-ing for so many days, I think I'm alright now. :)
Has been thinking a lot lately, talking to best friends and some other people.
.. and I think I should just let go!~ better than feeling sad and getting so bloody affected by all the things he has done.
I got my own life one can!..My life doesn't revolves around him only lor!
Letting go will be tough, cos I'll still be seeing him in class and stuffs..
But ah min is strong! ah min can do it ya! :D
I'll find someone who will really appreciate me next time! :P

Meanwhile, BIGBIGBIGBIG thankyou to my dearest Xinni, Kaixin and Yogi for always being there for me! :) I know you all have your own probs also, but JIAYOU! Everything will be fine soon! :D
Thankyou Jacey mei, Jul and Yvon, and dearest Mummy for being with me also and giving me advices too yeah! :)

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Anyway, I got an early birthday present! Heehee!!


*TADA*


weeheee!
best birthday pressie ever! :DD
I still rmb I actually wrote this as my wish on [期待卡] during his new single launch :P
hehee so yeap! my wish came true! ^-^v
thankyou JJ!.. even though you won't ever get to see this. heehee xP

Okay anw this was what happened if you're interested :P
Last night, Mummy and Papa decided to have our dinner at the airport since Papa wants an air-conditioned place..
So yeap, we went to the Soup Restaurant :D
So while waiting for our food, spotted someone with sunglasses and cap on queuing outside the restaurant and he looked so much like JJ!~
..was quite unsure until I saw his mum~~~~
LOL.

.. haha yaaa that's about it... lololol happyhappy :D
..and hope he doesn't thinks that I'm stalking him =x.. this was just pure coincidence :P

眼好肿 头好重 心好痛

就这样结束了吗 我的美梦

又一次失望。
有时候真的觉得好累好累。


没关系，习惯就好。:(


Disappointed once again..
..I'll get used to it. :(

No plans for today, no class! weehee. Finally a day I can REALLY rest at home.
But, bleh. I'm bored.

Bought some stuffs from ForestPrints again, going broke real soon.
But madmad likes the mushrooms!.. So it's okayee :P

nicenice?! hahaa!..
The molding, casting, and painting processes are all hand done by the seller, very limited in quantity
&so I think it's special :D

Celebrated Nic's birthday over at his house yesterday!
2course dinner prepared by him, heh!
Pictures to be up soon!



&imissmadmad x(

Morning...

****: Alright I will drop by later.

Afternoon...
****: I don think am able to meet you la. Im having family day
Me: oh den it's okay la.

...and I expected another reply but it didn't come.

........
BU SHUANG!
He gave me this feeling that I'm so not important larh, argh!!
I'm not angry that he wasn't able come and meet me, just kinda upset and disappointed about the fact that he didn't even bother to reply anything.
I expected something like "I will meet you another day"?.. or maybe sound at least a bit bit bit bit bit bit bit bit bit teeny weeny bit bit bit bit apologetic?.. I don't know what, but at least something laaaa!
HAIYO.
arrrrrr forget it la!
I'm in no position to get angry also, and I'm too tired to think of all these shit. Zzz.

Anyway, was working at Tampines today.
My personal sales was record low lar, sianz.
Public hols yet not much customers, zzz.
.. was rotting in shop for quite some time until Benny called to ask me to draw his board again~
Draw le nothing to do then start taking pics around the shop.
... and here they are..

drawdraw
My favourite quote by Aaron Morse!
Boney says HELLO!

The counter..

nicenice!
Harley Davidson
.. the USD$300 recycling box (can you believe it?.. I can't but it's true. -_-)
and lastly...........

.. I saw this in the storeroom..
heh heh!

Okaye lah that's all, got to work at Vivo tmr, hope I don't get screwed by Jul because of the sucky sales figure I got today.
K wanna go rest liao, physically and mentally drained.
I wanna SLEEP! wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

My first shopping trip to JB! funfun!(:

Anyway we were supposed to meet at 12, take train to Bugis and switch to an express bus to JB but he later on decided that we should take his bike there cos he doesn't want to waste so much time on traveling, wahah. -.-

Reached Woodlands checkpoint and it's really people ^^ people ~~.......

Had our lunch at City Square!
Went to this restaurant called Vivo (yar Vivo -_-, lol.)
Service wise was ......
We wanted the table cleared but the uncle ignored me despite me waving to him for like hundredmillion times -_- hahaa!

Then ordered food.
While waiting, picturespictures!(:

madmad with the menus (he was forced to take this pic, see his face you know. MUWAHAHA :X)
madmad&i shot 1!
And then our orders came!
Food was nice and affordable! yumyum!

Sham's fish and chips (he finished half the 'chips') and my chicken chopppp!

.. and then he insisted that I should take the aftermath............. -_-"

Then off to shopshop! :D
Went to buy his PS2 and my PSP games!
Got them at a good price since Sham knows that uncle :D

Then arcade!
Spent a few good hours playing our favourite Bishi-Bashi, wuhuahaa!

and then after that we went to shopshop..
..but came back to play again hahaa!

so while waiting for people to finish their game.....

madmad&i shot no.2!
weeeheeee I like this picture! :D

Then after that we headed back homeeee..

Anyway JB isn't a very dangerous + scary place la!..
Dad insisted I shouldn't go but I ended up going without telling him :X
opps.

Superrrrr veryyyyyyyyyy tiring day but fun! :D
Looking forward to the zoo + science centre + KL trips soon! =D

hEyO! Updates on Heeren's party!
In conjunction with the new Argan series launch, Kiehl's had this party held once in a blueblue moon whereby customers can make their purchase at 50% off second items!

PICTURES, muwaha.

People ^^ people ~~ (okaye I meant 人山人海 -.-)

Most people came knowing what to buy already, so don't really need to serve them la..
Then ended up taking pics outside with the Kiehl's boys HAHA.

Ryan and I + 2 Kiehl's boys!
With Joey...
With Ah Jul and our brand manager Michelle!
and then with Kiehl's boys and ex-Kiehl's staffs!~Anyway there were some refreshments outside the store too....
.. we were not supposed to eat it but, ah don't care lah! HUNGRY LEH!
Hahaha..

And lastly,
全家福! ...not everyone is here though x(

Superrrr tiring day but nonetheless, really enjoyed myself! weeeheeeee!(:

wOhOo wOhOo!
An angmoh customer wrote this for me yesterday!
happyhappy! :D

Heeren's party was great!
First time seeing sOoOOoOooo many people at Kiehl's! Haha!
Will blog about it soon when I receive the pics! :D

yOoohhoOoo! Exam's so-called over! WAHAHA.
Was dreading over Kok Meng's paper but it turns out fine!..
Anyway we got to choose 4 out of 6 essay questions carrying 25marks each, write till hand break lar!..haha!
Hehee but hope he can be nicer and gimme an A, considering my quality answers (*ahem ahem* haha!) and our pro group project! wahah! :P

Post-exam mini celebration at Simpang with my classmates!!

Sham and our teh tariks!

Gays Guys! :P

Eng Tian! We have small eyes, HAHA!

madmad and I (:

.. oh and by the way, Hassan Sunny was sitting beside us with his girlfriend, HAHA.

After that, the guys superr bo liao and exchanged their rides..

EngTian in Sham's bike and Sham in EngTian's car -_-
oh yah and EngTian was commenting that he actually has slim legs -_-"

.. and then a pic outside the temple (and that explains our pose -_-)

.. and finally a normal pic of the 3 top students haha!


yeap that's all!

oh yah and something eerie happened.....




..... Sham became semi-invisible in this pic o.O!


must be because he's a madmad.............. haha!



........... k la my camera sucks.

yOhOo!
I'm at the Esplanade library now, preparing for exams tmr!
Just had a nicencice dinner at the Art Cafe in the library,
nothing sumptuous, just a salmon-wasabi sandwich and a cup of latte that cost $12.50.
Expensive right?!!.. but it's worth the money!.. Especially the sandwich!.. It's reallyyyyy niceeeeee! :D YumYum! heheee..

okaye back to studying! :)
killer paper tmr! hope it doesn't kill me!..haha!
shimin jiayou!! :D

PS: People, ignore this post if you don't want to see the emo+sad+!@#$% part of me.

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To my dearest classmate,

I'm feeling so insecure, seeing you adding girls in Friendster everyday.
Yes i'm jealous, and I know I'm in no position to be jealous, I'm not even your girlfriend, and I don't know what I am to you, and sometimes I really feel like asking you that, but I just can't bring myself to it.

I once told myself to not get emotionally attached to anyone, because I'm SO afraid of getting hurt.
It was until you came into my life, I thought I've finally found the right one;
someone who I can rely on, someone who will be there for me, someone I can be happy with, someone I can feel special to be with,
someone who I can love.

You used to be so nice to me, sms-ing me everyday, saying all the nice stuffs, make me stupidly fall for you and then you start to take me for granted,
all the littlest things I do for you, you don't seem to appreciate them anymore. :(
..Everything is so wrong, I start to feel that I'm just another "normal" girl in your life, someone you can go out with/talk to when you're bored and someone who you use to just fill the emptiness in your heart.

I hate this feeling, I hate to realise that I'm the only one taking this relationship(?) seriously.
That's why I'm starting to stay a distance from you if you realise.
I can't let myself get hurt anymore.

I feel so confused/upset/I-don't-know-how-to-describe.
All I need is your assurance, tell me where do I stand in your heart, tell me all the things I've said in this post are wrong.
If not,
just let me go.

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Just typed this for fun, he won't get to see it anyway.

Can't find the words to express myself.
Anyway, why is it so difficult to **** *******?..

Sigh, so depressing.

人生~~~~

愛一直閃亮

我一個人的沙發上 還有你擁抱的力量
起身才看見孤獨的形狀
在空氣裡曝光

明明是咖啡不加糖 怎麼喝還是懶洋洋
你不在的天氣裝了開關
碰到天亮就黑暗

我以為愛一直閃亮 現在剩一個人堅強
想念在手中 張開變翅膀
我還懂不懂飛翔 (忘記了我懂飛翔)
我看見愛一直在閃亮
想逃的心改變了方向
只因這城市情歌太悲傷
才讓一碗熱湯 紅了眼眶

電視裡愛情播不完
怎麼轉才能離開現場
如果我承認你讓我很難忘
結局能不能換

不爽！就是不爽！！
不爽不爽不爽！！！
不知道为什么我会那么在意某些事情，搞到自己那么烦啦！
明天考试了啦！都没心情温书了~
哎哟！不爽啦！
****! You idiot!! I feel like strangling you can! Throw darts at you!!
ARGH!!!@#$%^&* I hate you laaaahhhh!!



PS: **** = someone's name, don't anyhow think yea!.. I'm not so vulgar, thankyou. :P

#%^&#%$^#$^&$

Exam's tmr and bloody hell i have no mood to study.

有点小失望…

其实应该早就预料到了，可是就是不敢去面对事实，一直就紧紧抱着那一点点的希望…
现在怎么办？… 就这样放弃吗？

Byebye Abyssine!

.. and here comes my new Argan series artwork! :D

*Tada!*

.. This Argan fruit wasted about 2 hours of my time =.="

Wondering why is there a goattt? :D
Because goats love argan fruits!.. and they always climb up the trees for them :)
Cute right?! hehee.. :D


Thanks Jul and Yvon for the help too!
.. and it's happyfamilyday at work today! hehee cos no Mojojojo today! ^-^v
yayyay :P

I'm feeling so insecure, so confused...... =/






... argh shimin shall not think too much! must concentrate on studies!! exam's nearing!~
>_<

我们都是恋爱的人
作詞：田欣 作曲：田欣

在黑暗 曾經伸手碰到你溫柔的臉
我以為 那是給我忘記痛苦的滋味
你說我很美 像花瓣在飛
撥動到你內心的潮水

從沒有 聽過你說愛我我感到狼狽
無所謂 只怕你會突然消失在天黑
期待你能送我美麗的玫瑰
安撫我心靈裡的憔悴

我們是戀愛的人
我們是相愛的人
你卻是相愛雙愛傷到我的靈魂
原來你的世界已經有了愛的人
為什麼還要我的加溫

你牽著她的靈魂
你抱著我的淚痕
我以為我是你唯一最愛的情人
有了她 我們只能到此不再相問
各自尋找所謂的人生

Lazy lazy Sunday........
Supposed to be chiong-ing for exams but
I'm studying at a very very very
very very very
slow pace.
-.-"

Bleh, no motivation lehhhh >_<
.. and * **** *** :S

My first Ben & Jerry's Free Cone Day!

Kaixin came to look for me during lunch break and we went to queue up for our ice creams!
yay! xD


.. and then Xinni and Nic came to visit me too! :D
JESS! where are youuuuu? I miss youuuuuuuuuuu~~~~ x( ... hahaa okaye anw if you're reading this, JIAYOU for your exams ya!! =))

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And lastly, to my dearest Blue Cleanser,


.. just wanna say..

I can't live without you!! (:




.... PS (Pai Seh): Super random post, hahaa! :P